“You know I have finally realize its only 20 years,” my father discussing the joys of parenthood and how quickly it all seems to pass you by. “Course it took me twenty-five years to figure it out.”
Miss Fussypants—Sophia’s nickname during her three week growth-spurt. Thankfully, Nate clued into what was going on before I did. Our sweet easy baby, was suddenly eating ALL the time and only sleeping in short bits. According to the literature I read—growth spurts are important to bring the mothers milk supply up to the growing needs of baby, eating stimulates milk supply. So I’m curious what this growth spurt feels like for her? Is it simply more hunger or does she feel irritable like a teenager? That thought scared me—moodiness in my three-week old? Oh my.
The other day I found an eyelash in her eye, didn’t seem to bother her. I can’t figure out how it could not? But I’m thankful that that’s one cry I don’t have to figure out—the I have something in my eye cry? Oh boy.
Being a parent seems like a very intuitive discovery, a joint venture between Sophia, Nate and myself. Personally I think she is the one training us—maybe that’s parenting lesson #1. It also doesn’t stop when you’re child reaches a certain age—my mother rather frantically called to check up on me after two and a half days of getting my voicemail. It happened to be Sophia’s growth spurt and life as we know it was completely altered, but I appreciated the gesture on her part.
“Miracles are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see. C.S. Lewis
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Mini-Milestones
Sophia has a real grown-up belly button now! That's right her last real connection to me and her time in the womb simply fell out this afternoon. No fan fare, no great annoucement. Just my little girl growing-up.
Last-night Nate and I had an errand to run and I was almost giddy just to get out of the house. Sophia was asleep and Nate indulged me, we grabbed some ice cream and found a scenic overlook. It was simple, simply wonderful. Just some stolen bits of conversation, a few old memories, and just like that I was in love with husband all over again. The best part of life right now is discovering balance, a walk with my husband and a smile from my little girl. The fact that I get to have both in my life at the same time, well that reality still overwhelms me.
Last-night Nate and I had an errand to run and I was almost giddy just to get out of the house. Sophia was asleep and Nate indulged me, we grabbed some ice cream and found a scenic overlook. It was simple, simply wonderful. Just some stolen bits of conversation, a few old memories, and just like that I was in love with husband all over again. The best part of life right now is discovering balance, a walk with my husband and a smile from my little girl. The fact that I get to have both in my life at the same time, well that reality still overwhelms me.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Honk-shew Honk-shew
The little snoring noises I have grown to love from my baby girl sound just like I had describe them as a child. Last night I reached for a blanket to swaddle her in and found I’d grabbed my own baby blanket and in that moment there was something so comforting about wrapping my child in something that had brought me such comfort.
Sophia is her own soul, she looks like her father but has the stick straight, jet black hair that sets her apart from each of us. But recently as the little smile have begun to creep into her repertoire, so has the adorable habit of rubbing her nose with a swaddled fist.
That move is definitely mine. A few days ago during a particularly noisy outbreak of frustration from Sophia, Nate attempted to calm her with a bottle but casually mentioned
“You’re going to have to learn how to do this yourself someday.” And just like that Sophia swatted at the bottle sending it flying across the floor! Yep she’s my daughter—she obviously has no problem sharing her opinions!
Today, I noticed our classy living room is rapidly being taken over by baby items, swings, blankets, pacifiers are becoming regular fixtures in our world and as Nate and I have both confessed, we love every minute of it. I used to be mortified at the thought of loosing my style over to Gerber and Winnie the Pooh but now it’s just a sign that someone else has move into our house and our lives.
As for me recovery seems to one-step forward, two-steps back. I’m hanging out on the couch today because I was a little too exuberant yesterday. So many mothers kept telling me that a C-section was no problem, but I really had to greive the fact that I wouldn’t get to go into labor and deliver this precious bundle I had been entrusted with for the past nine-months. Now I don’t know if I am being callous, but how she came into the world seems like such a trivial point. Meeting my daughter and enjoying her lusty healthy cries as she came into the world is the only thing that matters.
I now truly understand our dear friends Naomi and Travis that are currently SO close to adopting two little girls from Liberia. Yes, I gave birth to Sophia, but I feel more like her mother everyday I spend with her. The life of a child is an amazing gift no matter how it enters our lives.
Sophia is her own soul, she looks like her father but has the stick straight, jet black hair that sets her apart from each of us. But recently as the little smile have begun to creep into her repertoire, so has the adorable habit of rubbing her nose with a swaddled fist.
That move is definitely mine. A few days ago during a particularly noisy outbreak of frustration from Sophia, Nate attempted to calm her with a bottle but casually mentioned
“You’re going to have to learn how to do this yourself someday.” And just like that Sophia swatted at the bottle sending it flying across the floor! Yep she’s my daughter—she obviously has no problem sharing her opinions!
Today, I noticed our classy living room is rapidly being taken over by baby items, swings, blankets, pacifiers are becoming regular fixtures in our world and as Nate and I have both confessed, we love every minute of it. I used to be mortified at the thought of loosing my style over to Gerber and Winnie the Pooh but now it’s just a sign that someone else has move into our house and our lives.
As for me recovery seems to one-step forward, two-steps back. I’m hanging out on the couch today because I was a little too exuberant yesterday. So many mothers kept telling me that a C-section was no problem, but I really had to greive the fact that I wouldn’t get to go into labor and deliver this precious bundle I had been entrusted with for the past nine-months. Now I don’t know if I am being callous, but how she came into the world seems like such a trivial point. Meeting my daughter and enjoying her lusty healthy cries as she came into the world is the only thing that matters.
I now truly understand our dear friends Naomi and Travis that are currently SO close to adopting two little girls from Liberia. Yes, I gave birth to Sophia, but I feel more like her mother everyday I spend with her. The life of a child is an amazing gift no matter how it enters our lives.
Monday, March 20, 2006
Dear Daddy
Sunday, March 19, 2006
We Love our Ducky
Curiosity
Proud Grandparents
Coming Home
Saturday, March 11, 2006
We Love You Uncle Dana!
Sophia has two uncles in Africa, my little brother Dana
in Kenya and Nate's older brother Reuben in Chad.
My brother gave me this teddy bear years ago and I have
taken her with me everywhere. It's my favorite color and
now it sits in the rocking chair in my daughters room. The
room that Dana worked so hard on. We miss you Dana.
You're here with us in spirit.
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