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RAIN PLEASE!!!

2011-08-04T21:45:00.007-05:00

Today we've officially topped 100 degree heat for 34 days straight! Breaking 60 year old records with temperatures of 109. In other words, it might be hotter in other places but no one bakes as long as we can!

Seriously, we've been praying for our friend the postal worker who ended up in the ER recently. Sophia and I started to pray for rain weeks ago but we can't remember the last day the sky's leaked anything but sunshine. The monotony is down right life threatening and the pools feel like bath water.

Even the library is getting in on the weather watch. (We've been making daily trips to the library because it's a great place to get out of the heat and we need lots of inside entertainment.)Come On, Rain
is a deliciously written story about summer heat and sweet relief. Sadly, rain feels like a fairy tale these days.

Collecting Empathy

2011-07-09T17:28:00.008-05:00

"Most of us think that this life is the best there is- but as believers in Christ, we should live every moment knowing this is the worst there is. The best is yet to come."Annika Durbin (a conversation collected on my journey.)

It shouldn't surprise any of you that my latest two-week trip home turned into a six-week sojourn into the heart of God paved with dear friends. I've always found God in community, especially those who've shared the cup of suffering. As I work my way back into daily, Dallas-life, I realize how deeply the moments marked me.

Among my mementos, a little-yellow-book, slipped into my hands by a remarkable woman who's endured the loss of her daughter with unimaginable grace. Feeling grateful but emotionally strung-out, I was a little wary of what I would find between the pages.

God sends books to the most personal places of our hearts. The place we don't invite others, where only solitary words can pierce. (Perhaps that's why God wrote his story into book form?) This pint sized story will take your breath away.

Reading the description of a little boys brief but moving encounter in heaven moved my heart. Then I came to his encounter with his 'other' sister, the one who died in mommy's tummy before he was born.

Suddenly the unconscious bulwark of emotion I'd built around my heart crumbled. In one of those unexplainable spiritual moments I realized how much pain I'd been harboring because of my tiny family.

Having only one child (after two miscarriages in a year) I wonder about my daughter's social life? How the loneliness is affecting her child hood? I hurt every time some one remarks about how nice it must be to only have the chaos of one. These worries and pains have been pulling me into a dark place that I haven't even admitted to myself. In my broken grief I could only picture my loss, my interrupted plans, my unstable identity.

Until, thanks to this preschooler's powerful narrative, I glimpsed my eternal family and my eternal home! Overcome with the idea of my large, colorful, family waiting for me beyond the pale I could do nothing but rejoice!

Rejoice for the lives so precious to God that he adopts our little ones into a peaceful and perfect reality.

Rejoice in the fact that my life on this earth is but a breath and it's over to spend eternity in perfect peace.

Rejoice in a God that would send his own child to die in order to cleanse me from the taint of destruction and restore me to a peace that I don't deserve.

² I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. ³ And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ⁴ ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’^[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Revelation 21:2-3

Heaven is for Real: A Little Boy's Astounding Story of His Trip to Heaven and Back

Confession of a Book Lover

2011-05-11T15:28:00.000-05:00

"Never trust a person who has not brought a book with them." Lemony Snicket

Wanna know an author's dirty little secret? The real reason I don't own a Kindle or Ipad is because I don't actually BUY as many books as I read. (don't abuse the system-just support your local library!)

Library day in our house is one of mommy's favorite. Typically, I go on a book hunt when my house needs a good scrub. An audio book helps the brain stay engaged while the details get done. Recently, I discovered Book Page a free magazine offered by the library filled with book reviews. Everything from Erik Larson to the debut novel of Ravi's daughter Naomi Zacharias gets a review for people like me who need a little help getting out of a reading rut.

I know I'm a little obsessed, I circle a book then reserve my own copy on-line from my local library. On a regular basis I get an e-mail from the library to come in and pick up the latest on my list. It's Netflix for books!

Latest Loves:

The Oracle of Stamboul: A Novel

Hannah's Hope: Seeking God's Heart in the Midst of Infertility, Miscarriage, and Adoption Loss

Chasing Cezanne: A Novel

The Vintage Caper

Counterfeit Gods: The Empty Promises of Money, Sex, and Power, and the Only Hope that Matters

A Testimony of His Grace

2011-04-27T11:25:00.007-05:00

"Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than treason,
To go with the drift of things
To yield with grace to reason
And bow and accept the end
Of a love or a season?"

From Reluctance By Robert Frost, sketched into the back of my Bible ten years ago.

As spring surrenders to summer, Nathanael and I wonder at the year the Lord has walked us through? In 2010, after spending a month in Chad, we found ourselves long on conscious and short-on employment. Last Easter, returning to Iowa from a brief stint in Arlington,Texas we were voluntarily unemployed, pregnant and living in my parents basement. In the months that followed we discovered our home renters planned to renew, the Lord opened a door for us to return to Arlington in employment that would fulfill my husband's passion and background. With so much answered prayer it was difficult not to get swept away in the image of a perfect future.

Fast forward an entire year of the highest up and downs either of us could imagine. This year we've been grateful to be surrounded by family to carry us and grieve with us two failed pregnancies in six months. The pain and broken dreams of two special children Anna and Simeon drove me to Hopeful Hearts, at the Village Church Dallas. Although I believe with joy that we'll meet these precious ones as we glorify the Lord in perfection and restoration, the comfort and understanding of community has become a lifeline.

The silence of infertility can be a source of haunting pain, the quiet of empty arms, unexperienced joy and community celebration. The missing laughter of children looms in our hearts leaving a hole that only the Lord can fill, comfort and restore. Buoyed by strong teaching and close community we are experiencing joy and strength in Him. Needing daily refreshment and direction we're discovering the peace that comes by placing our faith in His salvation and not in my daily expectation. Now the words of Robert Frost are still true. Pain and disappointment is no less heart wrenching but through a trembling, halting faith in a being greater than I, my days are secure in the hope of Christ. In a father who gave His only child in order that restoration and rest may be poured out on His children for eternity.

"O God, you will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are fixed on you; for in returning and rest we shall be saved; in quietness and trust shall be our strength."

Isaiah 26:3; 30:15 Book of Common Prayer

Prayers for Peace in the Digital Age

2011-04-20T11:27:00.005-05:00

"When the elephants fight, it is the grass that suffers." Kikuyu Proverb, Kenya

In today's modern age, the saying applies to scandal, especially in the charity business. Recent allegations of false information in Greg Mortenson's Three Cups of Tea and objections about the allocations of funds have definitely tarnished Afghanistan's most popular representative. Considered, in popular culture, as the Mother Teresa of the war-torn region, his fall from grace will hurt more than book sales. Difficult economic times have reeked havoc on charitable giving, bringing to light another mismanagement of funds and inflated ego will likely affect the entire industry.

This story caused a disappointing stomach lurch while my brother-in-law is deployed in this conflicted corner of the world. Reminding me of the need for prayer, for both sides. As the snow melts in Afghanistan, the war is flaring up on the ground and on on 60 minutes. Let us not forget to pray for our family members far from home and the people they are interacting with everyday.

For a great perspective on Afghanistan from one of it's own check out this book:

Storyteller's Daughter by Saira Shah a British citizen turned journalist, who's father filled her with images of his beloved Afghanistan which she struggled to recognize upon her return as an adult.

If You're Heading to San Francisco

2011-03-03T10:34:00.024-06:00

"You HAVE to watch My Name is Khan!" Came my mother's recommendation this week. Turns out my parents and Nate (my resident indie flic buff) had separately stumbled onto it via Netflix and we're raving about it. The name triggered something in my memory.

"Is it filmed in San Francisco, in the bay by the Wave Organ?" I asked. Click. It came together in my memory. Summer 2009, celebrating San Francisco sunshine Sophia and I stumbled onto a Bollywood production filming My Name is Kahn. Check it out--the movie's reporting a worldwide release of over $19 million in three days. Not a bad review--but I'd love to hear yours.

Speaking of San Francisco, I just finished a great book you shouldn't pass up: Locked Rooms: A novel of suspense featuring Mary Russell and Sherlock Holmes. I've been on a bit of a Laurie King kick lately (I love the mystery/history combo this is a great example exploring San Fran and the Great Quake of 1906).

If you like Sherlock Holmes books, you'll love these titles by Laurie King:

The Beekeeper's Apprentice: Or On the Segregation of the Queen/A Novel of Suspense Featuring Mary Russell and Sherlock Holmes (Mary Russell Novels), the first in the series where we meet a young Mary Russell and a retired Sherlock Holmes.
Followed by their solidified partnership in A Monstrous Regiment of Women (Post WWI England).
The Game (Mary Russell Novels)
O Jerusalem (Mary Russell Novels)
The God of the Hive: A novel of suspense featuring Mary Russell and Sherlock Holmes

Last but not least, I can't say enough about Touchstone by Laurie King. This time a masculine lead character recovering from WWI shell shock and it's unusual affects. If you like Jeffery Archer or Iian Pears An Instance of the Fingerpost: A Novel you'll love Touchstone.

A great movie or book has to be shared! Pass it on.

The Wandering Dove

2011-03-02T21:58:00.005-06:00

I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest.
I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;
I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm. Psalm 55: 6-9

You Yourself have recorded my wanderings.
Put my tears in Your bottle.
Are they not in Your records?
Then my enemies will retreat on the day when I call.
This I know: God is for me.
In God, whose word I praise,
in the LORD, whose word I praise,
in God I trust; I will not fear.
What can man do to me? Psalm 56:8-11

^{For the broken, the weary, the wanderers, the empty hearted. For me. . .}

The Village Church & Darfur

2011-01-04T11:00:00.004-06:00

What can one person do for the people of Southern Sudan? According to Matt Chandler, pastor of the Village Church, we can pray for the January 9th Sudanese Referendum for Secession . Joining others across the world to pray for a continued resolve in Darfur and Southern Sudan.

For our family- Sudan is hard to ignore simply because its in Chad's (my husband's native country) backyard. In 2008 an attempted Chadian coup brought to light just how interconnected the two countries can be, continued peace in Sudan means stability and progress for an entire region of the globe. Visiting Chad in 2010 deepened our connection to this corner of the world giving us a first hand account of the similarity of people across the border simply trying to eek out an existence in an unforgiving but beautiful territory.

Moving to the Dallas Fort Worth Area in 2010 the Lord brought us to the Village church though a series of personal encounters that had little to do with Sub-Saharan, Africa. Now it's a pleasure to discover the Village Church's commitment to the people of Sudan and share something each of us can do for this troubled portion of God's earth. Please check out Actions Speak Louder and consider what one person can do today.

New Beginnings

2010-12-14T22:19:00.003-06:00

Today, my little brother Dana started Air Force Boot Camp in San Antonio, Texas. This marks my parents official introduction to military life. Suffice it to say, our hearts are now connected to the men and women in uniform that are far from home this holiday season, including my brother-in-law Joseph Ndjerareou, stationed in Bagram Airforce Base, Afghanistan.

In honor of Joseph and Dana I wanted to shine light on Operation Gratitude that sends care packages, scarves, candy and personal letters to the armed forces stationed around the world.

Thank you again for your prayers for Dana and Joseph. We look forward to seeing Dana at graduation in February and we're counting the days until we see Joseph next summer.

A Must Have Stocking Stuffer

2010-12-11T11:48:00.004-06:00

It's no secret I adore children's books. Long before I had Sophia, I've believed children's books are good for the soul. The simplicity of story telling, powerful words and beautiful illustrations, continue to be one of my favorite art forms. I'm thrilled to high light Rachel Isadora's work, it contains these best aspects with an African twist.

The Twelve Days of Christmas by Rachel Isadora is the classic song with gorgeous African visuals that speak for themselves. Five golden necklace rings. Eight maids a milking (goats.) The nine ladies dancing looked remarkebly Swazi, one of my former homes. Sure enough, Rachel spent 10 years in Africa some of that in Swaziland.

Delighted by this book I started looking up other Isadora books and discovered a couple were already favorites on my family shelves including:

At the Crossroads

I'm exceptionally thrilled to introduce Isadora's classic children's stories to Sophia. As an inter-cultural family, I'm always touched to find wonderful books to create a dynamic and visually diverse context. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do!

Gratefulness

2010-11-27T23:35:00.006-06:00

This year a full heart look like. . .

My grandmother's lace table cloth, bringing a little of my history to a whole new tradition.

My great-grandmother's stuffing recipe & many turkey-strategy phone-calls home to mom.

Seeing loved ones in far away places (thank you Skype.) Banga in Afghanistan and grandparents in Iowa.

Celebrating little ones, this year Sophia's cousin and best friend in all the world turned five. (Sophia can't quite figure out how Hannah got to five before she did--it brings out her competitive side. She's happy for her cousin and the fact that we had cake and pie this year!)

Laughter with cousins all day long. (He ain't dead!)

Creating new traditions with Nate and Sophia (learning Nate prefers pecan over pumpkin pie.)

A table full of people this Thanksgiving. American's, Algerians, Chadians, Nigerians and everything in between. This year our Thanksgiving represented the very best of the essence of the holiday--a feast gathering strangers, becoming family simply through shared table and hearts.

This Woman Has A Secret

2010-11-12T22:41:00.005-06:00

"Ahhh a little baby," I cooed this evening as an infant squawked nearby.

"Mommy, I want to see your little baby." Sophia told me, looking very sad and serious for a moment. "The one who went straight from your tummy, to heaven."

It doesn't matter how old you are, I believe, something in us delights in children. As our family mourns the child we won't meet this side of heaven, we're being introduced to a group of people who suffer empty arms, silently. I'm so thankful for groups like HOPEFUL HEARTS, my church's support group here in Dallas and brave women like Andrea, an infertility success story who took her painful journey to the web, both of these are shedding light into the pain of miscarriage and infertility.

It wasn't until this issue became personal did I realize how much shame and pain couples who are struggling to have children deal with. Self Magazine did an expose on it this fall, it's a MUST read for anyone who breathes. The stigma, shame and lack of research or options for this issue astound me. There is no reason that a couple should face this alone, especially when mind/body anti-anxiety is so vital for success. Please check it out and prayerfully consider how you can extend support and comfort to those around you.

"Infertility is where breast cancerwas in the 1970s—completely in the closet." Because no one wants to discuss infertility, "nothing gets done about it," says Lindsay Beck, founder of Fertile Hope, a program run by the Lance Armstrong Foundation in Austin, Texas, that supports cancer patients whose treatments threaten their fertility..

THIS WOMAN HAS A SECRET, Self Magazine

Thank You Rangers!

2010-10-30T11:43:00.000-05:00

Check out Sophia's video debut! If you've been paying attention, I've been talking about Sophia's recent fears and overcoming things that make her nervous. This little video made us all so proud, not because of her talent (of course I think she's a natural) it was how she worked to overcome her fears that thrilled us. (I'm seriously afraid she will never be my brave girl again.) Sophia became SO nervous when she saw the camera crew, but we knew she'd be disappointed in herself if she didn't try.

She started the morning by saying "get up Mommy, the Rangers need us!" She's a little passionate about her Rangers. Especially when they beat the 'hankies'. We're passionate about the Rangers--but we're even bigger fans of my college buddy Brandon and the team at You Plus Media. Thanks guys for making Dallas look so good!

The Streaker!

2010-10-30T11:17:00.003-05:00

This is my daughter--my dare devil little girl! The one who would take a fall on the playground and shake it off like a pro. Other mom's would say they'd never heard Sophia cry. No matter what country or continent she'd find friends by barreling in without any kind of fear.

Flashforward to last week when me using the broiler caused a melt down like I'd never seen. "What happened?" Nate asked. "I made a tuna melt?" I said. Daily she's been freaking out when I turn on the stove, not just screaming or crying but running out the front door. The other day she ran out without a stitch of clothes on. She didn't care! That's not the only thing she's afraid of, a recent fascination with earthquakes and tornadoes is now a constant battle against every type of sound that resembles a siren.

I'm learning it's a phase, a natural part of learning about life. I do believe its a good survival mechanism. We've been praying with her, for her, over her coupled with lots of talking. We're learning healthy attitudes and behaviors toward storms and strangers. Our family definitely has fire plan now. Thankfully, Nate is home during this time but the fear is creeping into all our lives. I miss cooking with my little girl. This week, Nate made popcorn after she went to bed to avoid a scene. No alarms or anything, just the faintest hint of cooking smells. This time I was prepared. Taking a position by the front door, in a blink of an eye, I caught a frantic four-year-old trying to make a break for it! Sigh. . . I miss my super hero!

2010-10-28T10:46:00.005-05:00

"What's so alarming is that we took ordinary children and made them into liars, simply by telling them they were smart."

Mindset: The New Psychology of Success

This line has haunted me for days. The author, Carol Dweck in her fascinating book Mindset, discusses two distinct paradigms for handling learning, life, and even relationships. One being that a fixed mindset where all feedback either proves or disproves how smart, pretty, likable, (the list goes on) we are.

In a fixed mindset there are only so many smart or talented people. The rest of us live in fear trying to prove we're part of the smart group. According to Dweck's staggering amounts of research, when a scarcity paradigm is implied to personal ability there are nasty and negative results. Children praised for their ability shy away from situations where they will not be shine. They believe if they're not naturally good at it the first time, it implies negatively on their being, therefore why try? Dweck exposes the mindsets in adults in multiple examples as well,

The contrary, the growth mindset is most easily explained in children who are praised not for their ability, but for their effort. These children receive commendation because of the time and attention they placed in overcoming a problem. They learn they're not defined by their failures or successes. They have multiple resources to draw from and failure is simply a natural part of learning. Dweck spends chapters elaborating on the quantifiable consequences of the mindset played out in every aspect of life. It's a fascinating look at much of life.

Personally, this book came just when I needed it most. As a mother of a dynamic, beautiful and intelligent four-year old. It's easy to act like your child hung-the-moon. But when the same little girl stops wanting to write her own name (something we've been doing for months) because other kids do it better??? Or as she puts it, "mommy it's not perfect." Admittedly, I was stunned and saddened.

Thankfully, I got a quiet afternoon to absorb much of Dwecks research and immediately changed my conversations with Sassy. Granted it's only been a few days but now we have an understanding of what her little brain is processing and how to change her (and my) focus from ability towards effort. I could go on and on about this book, but I also enjoyed the fact that it fit with much of my worldview and faith. We are called to work hard in all things, as if working unto the Lord. Effort is acknowledged, but we're constantly reminded that the results are in God's hands.

Happy Birthday Nathanael

2010-10-25T13:27:00.005-05:00

¹ Blessed is the man

who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked

or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.

² But his delight is in the law of the LORD,

and on his law he meditates day and night.

³ He is like a tree planted by streams of water,

which yields its fruit in season

and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.
Psalm 1:1-3

This weekend we celebrated my beloved husband's birthday. I can honestly say that although the year has been difficult, the celebration was genuinely joyful. The grace of the Lord has given us much to rejoice in, good friends and family, renewed relationships and deep, deep awareness of the glory and goodness of the Lord.

It's such a delight to celebrate a man who's heart belongs to God. We can rest knowing that regardless of what life brings our way, we prosper in the Lord. God is where our treasure lies, nothing more, nothing less. This year's forced us to change our ideas of what's important and I've been so grateful for Nate's encouragement and his pursuit of the Lord. Happy Birthday darling, it's a pleasure and a gift to call you husband and friend.

Proof Positive

2010-10-25T11:30:00.009-05:00

Scrolling through pictures this weekend I kept getting glimpses of the patient, dotting father Nate is, in countless captured moments. I just had to share a few. No matter where we are in the world, daddy always makes an effort to spend time with his girls. I don't need any convincing that Sophia has a wonderful daddy but this is a tiny sampling of the devoted father, adventurer and gentle leader Nate is for his family.

Heading to the beach, Playa de Carma, Mexico

First Birthday Fun--Sophia didn't end up covered with cake--but daddy did!

Loving his long legged newborn!

Gymnastics class, Twisters Gym

Watching the seals in San Fransisco

Exploring the Louvre, Paris

Bath time, Cedar Rapids, Iowa

Quiet moments, Wheaton, Illinois

Goofing off taking daddy to the airport, Chicago, Illinois

Walt Disneyland, California

Summer fun, Shueyville, Iowa

"Sledding", White Sands National Park, New Mexico

Playing catch, Moundou, Chad, Africa

Celebrating another birthday with his princes, Dallas, Texas

Go Rangers!

2010-10-19T10:40:00.003-05:00

Even though we're new to Texas--we became Rangers fans months ago. (Believe me you have to be a fan to go to an afternoon game in AUGUST.) It helps that we can see the stadium from our house. But nothing makes you a fan like beating the Yankees in October!! Thank you Texas!

The World According to Sophia

2010-10-12T16:26:00.002-05:00

Nate: I have a bad case of the I don't wanna's this morning.

Me: I have a bad case of the I don't think I can's.

Sophia: I have a bad case of the when are we gonna play?

Sophia to checkout lady at Wal-Mart: My mommy is a great cook.

Friendly checkout person: Oh really, what does she make that you love?

Sophia: She puts butter on bread!

Wow! Never underestimate the power of butter!

On Second Thought

2010-10-08T18:49:00.008-05:00

My number one fan (my husband) just informed me that my last blog was depressing. Personally, I believe this is more a commentary on what's happening in our nation than in our daily happenings. We're currently thriving in Dallas, but just so you don't worry here's some of the latest favorites!

Muir Woods

My latest Cali trip for my friends Renee's wedding we did a drive by San Fransisco tour to pick up her fiance (in from Virginia), a couple of friends and a marriage license. Rusty, (the groom) a nature lover, couldn't resist a stop at Muir Woods. I have to admit, I didn't think we could fully appreciate nature in the hour we had between errands. I was so wrong!! What a breathtaking moment. I was overwhelmed at the beauty and peace surrounding me so close to the city.

Mennonite in a Little Black Dress: A Memoir of Going Home
It's been a little while since I've been on an airplane by myself. In fact, Sophia cried as we parted and wanted to know why she couldn't come with me? (I think she may be one of the youngest frequent flyer mile holders). I don't like to fly that much--but I love being forced to hang out and read. This weekend I picked this one up from the Maid of Honor who grew up in the California Mennonite community that takes center stage in the book.

It was a blast to hear Beth's own family humor and attitudes coming through pages. I can't say I LOVED this book, in fact the authors thoughts on organized religion struck me as sad. But it's a fascinating look at two very opposing world views and how they play out in a family. The author follows her personal beliefs into an abusive relationship then divorce and heartache while her parents modest "close minded" world full of quirky love and security is paraded out for comic relief. But in the end you can't help but love the Mennonite parents (I don't mean I want them for my own--it was a quirky and sheltered upbringing) But I'm glad I read it.

Snow White in Fort Worth

Thanks to new friends for warmly embracing us and sharing some great children theatre. It wasn't their fault that Sophia is my daughter and that anything scary like a witch or a snake (or lately boiling water--I'm not kidding she's afraid something on the stove will boil over so she freaks out when I cook) will make her head for the door. But she comes by it honest, when I was in high school I pushed my little brother onto the floor fleeing a Velocaraptor while watching Jurassic Park on the TV in the kitchen.

Quantum of Solace: The Complete James Bond Short Stories

My little brother passes me all his audio books and most of the time it's interesting but not always a favorite. This one I listened to between Kansas City and Dallas and was AMAZINGLY surprised. This was my first Flemming book, it's creative, colorful and far more thought provoking than I expected.

Frugal Fall Food

2010-10-08T16:23:00.007-05:00

After this month's depressing news on the job front, I gamely informed my husband that I'm changing my perspective. From now on I'm not going to see myself as a stay at home mom, but as a woman who's voluntarily withdrawn from the workforce so that others may have my position. Instead, I'm investing my energies into cost-saving ideas that will educate my daughter and stretch our budget. Today's task: Making croutons out of left over bread. Tomorrow: banana bread from brown bananas (they also make great smoothie if you freeze them) The Melrose Restaurant on Broadway in Chicago used to make a great Chicken curry salad with fruit and banana bread on the side.

As fall fast approaches it's time for soup. Recipes that are delicious and frugal since you can stretch canned food or aging vegetables. In my house I typically have to double the portion the protein. "Who ate all the meat out of this?" is a very common refrain in my kitchen.

Curries Vegetable Stew

Black Bean with Tomato and Cilantro Soup

Coq Au Vin

Lea's Curried Tomato Bisque (Great with homemade croutons)

My cousin introduced me to her own invention of Smoked Turkey Leg soup. It's a traditional end of the month soup (meaning whatever you have left before pay day or left in the fridge/cupboard goes in the pot) the smoked turkey makes a WONDERFUL broth.

Pirates Invade School

2010-10-08T15:11:00.005-05:00

Jack Sparrow makes surprise appearance this week at London school in answer of a 9-year old's request for assistance starting a mutiny. Thankfully he and his gang of pirates helped avert the mutiny. But it did make me smile. Just because Johnny Depp went out of his way for a little girl, I'll be checking out his next Pirates movie. (Ok maybe I'm over the Pirates franchise--but today's antic's will get me to put the next one in my Netflix queue!)

Wedding at the Top of the World

2010-10-05T19:19:00.005-05:00

Rusty Carter & Renee Roshar together with friends & family

were united in marriage at Glacier Point, Yosemite National Park. October 3rd, 2010

A wonderful reception was held at Wawona Lodge,

I'm so thankful to God for bringing Rusty into our lives and for the happiness that God has ordained for these two deserving people.

Mail to Nowhere

2010-10-05T18:02:00.005-05:00

Today, I closed the first e-mail address I'd ever had, signing off on a significant part of my early life. For those of you who recently received spam e-mails from this account I'm very sorry. It was just another incentive to shut it down. Saying goodbye to an inbox might seem silly. But it dawned on me, I've had that little place in cyberspace longer than I've had any other type of address.

I remember opening the account while I was a Page in the Iowa House of Representatives. The year before I went to college, I was living in Des Moines on a friends couch. It was the beginning of a nomadic period through college and onward. It always amazed me the stability I felt being rooted to something so intangible . Perhaps another reason I freely move forward is because of Facebook, another bookmark in the world, marking my place in the world.

The Lost Art of Commitment

2010-09-20T15:21:00.002-05:00

August Op-ed from Chuck Colson, Western perspective on suffering in ministry and an fascinating book review on marriage all seem to repeat one theme this afternoon--Commitment demands dying to self-interest. None of it sounds very romantic, it does sound honest and filled with truth. Five and a half years of marriage--romance is taking on new dimensions.

Boys, Boys, Boys

2010-09-14T12:39:00.005-05:00

Nate &Joseph(Banga) Graduating from Officer Candidate School in February
Nate & Reuben with their Maternal Grandmother in Chad, last December
Rueben in Chad, Cattle Security??

Dana Halloween 2009, The Roaming Gnome

My little brother Dana will be staring in Shakespeare's A Comedy of Errors this weekend.

If there's one thing BOTH sides of our family are good at it's travel. These past few weeks have been no exception. Nate's brothers have gathered from around the globe to spend a few moments together before Joseph deploys for Afghanistan. Reuben has limited time in-country before returning to responsiblities in Chad, we'll be road tripping North to Cedar Rapids where I'll get to spend some time with my little brother. Nate is heading to the west coast. Dana is working on his bucket list (including staring in a Shakespearian play and bumming around Europe) before Air Force boot camps this winter.

I guess we're a military family now but we could never stay in one place to begin with. It helps me appreciate what a great family God has blessed us with! (Auntie Minga was around recently and we can never get enough of her--if only we could get Auntie Melom too!)

Food Revolution Update

2010-09-08T08:19:00.005-05:00

'My philosophy to food and healthy eating has always been about enjoying everything in a balanced, and sane way. Food is one of life's greatest joys yet we've reached this really sad point where we're turning food into the enemy, and something to be afraid of. I believe that when you use good ingredients to make pasta dishes, salads, stews, burgers, grilled vegetables, fruit salads, and even outrageous cakes, they all have a place in our diets. We just need to rediscover our common sense: if you want to curl up and eat macaroni and cheese every once in a while – that's alright! Just have a sensible portion next to a fresh salad, and don't eat a big old helping of chocolate cake afterwards." Jaime Oliver

Recently I discovered Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. Admittedly I've never seen a Jamie Oliver cooking show. Nate & I first noticed Oliver on This Week with Christiane Amanpour (a steady part of our diet around here.) Oliver's story of teaching Britain's & Americans how to cook hit home with me, so did his note that American's spent more on fast food in 2007 than they did on education! This blew my mind.

"We're not talking about gourmet French cheeses and expensive cuts of meats here. . . we're talking French fries, pizzas, burgers, and other food that is absolute garbage." Jamie Oliver, Food Revolution

Personally, I love to cook. Food is a wonderful art form that crosses cultural barriers. It's also an everyday activity that nourishes my family and creates an environment that draws people together. I grew up with a wonderful history of hospitality. One shared by both my parents. Unfortunately, I didn't spend enough time in the kitchen to really learn how to cook from my mother. Maybe because I wasn't interested in traditional American cuisine or I'm just not very patient. It wasn't till Nate & I were developing our own home and culture that I discovered how much I loved global cooking. Having friends who create an excellent environment for people to gather helped. My point--I still have a lot to learn and I'm looking forward to creating more scratch meals from every type of tradition.

Oliver's Food Revolution combines fresh & affordable ingredients, two of my favorite concepts. Adding to the reasons I love it are his recipes from all over the world, and a belief that great home made food is healthy, because it isn't processed and enjoyed in moderation. Regardless of weather you agree with Jamie's ideals, cooking these recipes have been fun and simple. The best part has been feeding it to family and experiencing their enjoyment. Having family around constantly has been my favorite part of Dallas. Feeding them has simply been an inspiring way to get to know them!

Some of our family favorites have been:

Chicken Tikka Masala

Vindaloo Curry

Sweet Potato & Chorizo Soup

Cauliflower Cheese

Best Ever French Beans

A Few of My Favorite Things

2010-09-01T11:00:00.006-05:00

French press coffee in the morning with Sophia: We have a leisurely, decadent routine that makes us happy on so many levels. The French press, a simply elegant way to make coffee that brings out the best flavors. Compared to other coffee makers it's a little labor intensive, that's why Sophia loves it.

She loves to pour the beans into the grinder, grind the beans, pour them into the coffee pot, wait for the tea-pot to whistle, watch mommy pour in the hot water, set the timer for four minutes (something we learned at Brewed Awakenings.) Then her favorite part of the morning, pressing the coffee grounds to the bottom. She uses all her strength to accomplish this goal and it's adorable. Finally mommy pours in a yummy flavored coffee creamer and Sophia stirs it to perfection.

This morning she commented "You like your coffee this light color, it's the same color as you! "Yes" I replied "but it's as sweet as you!" She's still not convinced it's worth drinking but it's definitely my favorite part!

Jaime Oliver: Food Revolution: Speaking of food & favorites. I ADORE this cookbook. I typically avoid cook books opting for web based recipes. But I'm in the process of working my way through this cookbook. I'll keep you posted. The only problem I can for see is keeping enough fresh herbs on hand! Uncultured Persons, Favorite T-Shirt: My cousin (in-law) did it again! An oh-so comfy shirt that I love to wear at home and around Dallas!

Pho 95 New Favorite Restaurant in Arlington: Moving as much as Nate & I did growing up you learn how to befriend a place, like you would a person. Getting to know it's personality. On the corner of Cooper and Bardin in Arlington is Pho 95. It's not just a whole in the wall it's got style and ambience with great Vietnamese food. But it's not a chain, it's a decidedly local feel especially when it's cool enough to sit outside. My tip-- try the Su Yuen Reisling with the BBQ Pork & Noodles, it's served with fresh veggies, drizzle it with the dressing and watch it disappear. Try their sandwich's or their drip coffee! Vietnam was settled by the French and so the influence show's up in the crusty French Baguette sandwich with and asian twist and iced-drip coffee with sweetened condensed milk! To die for!

Cara Black, Paris Mysteries: Last but not least Cara Black's, Amiee Leduc mysteries have been my standard pool reading this summer. I've devoured four of them. All set in Paris in the 90's Aimee Leduc runs a cyber-detective agency but still manages to get out of the office and find trouble in every nook and cranny of Paris.

I love these books for a couple of reasons. First, she manages to get involved with every type of Paris settler. The Jewish WWII community, the Algerian refugee, the Haitians, you name it she's written a book about their connection with the city and their country. It gives you a feel of the real Paris, not just the guidebook version. Yet Black is still able to capture the essence of the Parisian attitude and French--all while teaching you more about the different neighborhoods of Paris, their history and modern inhabitants.

I love Black's formula for a great novel, her integrity with the characters representing real people. Great writing and daring political plot twists make it a great page turner! Also the last four are now on audio book. They're fabulous.

The Beautiful Irony of Comfort

2010-08-09T12:58:00.005-05:00

The LORD is my shepherd;

there is nothing I lack.

² He lets me lie down in green pastures;

He leads me beside quiet waters.

³ He renews my life;

He leads me along the right paths
for His name's sake.

⁴ Even when I go through the darkest valley,

I fear [no] danger,
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff —they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶ Only goodness and faithful love will pursue me

all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
as long as I live. Psalm 23, HCSB

"Comfort is not given to us when we are lighthearted and cheerful. We must travel the depths of emotion in order to experience comfort--one of God's most precious gifts. And then we must be prepared to become coworkers with Him." L.B. Cowman, Streams in the Dessert

In times of grief and distress I reach for voices of God's truth that have always granted me peace and assuredness of His presence. In previous visits to the valley, God gently revealed Himself through this beloved Psalm. Especially in the strategically placement of the valley being in the middle of the Psalm. The valley is never our final destination!
L.B. Cowman, Streams in the Dessert is one of the first places I turn in difficult times. The poignant devotionals are forged in suffering and heartache bathing the reader in God's grace for the wounded. It's one of my primary recommendations for the hurting.
This morning Cowman's first line confirmed something Nate & I keep turning over in our souls. Comfort, something we pursue in order make our lives easier, to keep us from hardship, buffer us from anything distasteful. The more the Lord rewrites our priorities, the more we understand why comfort is a gift to be granted in times of hardship not a right bestowed on the faithful. The more we search for comfort to protect us from suffering the more it smothers us and leaves wanting more. Instead the true meaning of the word comfort is the rain the God pours on the thirsty soul. The dry parched land of our bruised and battered being.
The imprint of these moments are so etched in my soul that their memory alone has brought comfort as we have wandered back into the valley. I know that comfort will come from Him, His hand will fill the deepest hole in my heart, the burning anguish of a soul on fire can only truly be quenched by his Living Water. A fact that is just as true this time as it has been in the past, now not just for me but also for Nate & Sophia.

Today as we climb through the Valley we're aware that it'll come to an end. Just as importantly, we're learning not to pursue comfort in the traditional sense. Instead, we're
learning to see earthly security simply as stuff, things to be held open handed.
No amount of earthly comfort can insulate us from trial. Real comfort is something precious given from the Lord when we're broken. The awareness of what comfort truly is allows us to go forth boldly knowing that we are secure in Christ. He will hold us when the world falls apart, and His comfort truly restores the broken.

"He has given us his very great and precious promises. " 2 Peter 1:4

2010-08-02T23:35:00.002-05:00

Simeon "Pumpkin" Ndjerareou

July 11th, 2010

Forever in our hearts, safe in the hands of our Lord

2010-08-02T23:09:00.004-05:00

"Our Little Angel"

The day we first knew, a blessed conception of you,

We were excited to be, blessed parents to thee.

Mommy and Daddy will never forget,

that moment when we all first met.

You never knew an earthly existence

but a place warm, secure, a place of innocence.

God's plan, God's purpose for you is unclear,

We do know this, He will hold you, love you,

so never fear.

Our Little Angel, so tiny and sweet

whose footprints lead upward

to our Savior, our Healer, indeed.

You are with God now, healthy and whole.

Earthly illness and maladies will never take hold.

In God's kingdom, be strong and be well,

For one day we will meet again, with new stories to tell.

-Anonymous

2010-07-29T12:37:00.002-05:00

If we could see beyond today

As God can see;

If all the clouds should roll away,

The shadows flee;

O'er present griefs we would not fret.

Each sorry we would soon forget,

For many joys are waiting yet

For you and me.

If we could know beyond today

As God does know,

Why dearest treasures pass away

And tears must flow;

Any why the darkness leads to light,

Why dreary paths will soon grow bright;

Some day life's wrongs will be made right

Faith tells us so

"If we could see, if we could know,"

We often say,

But God in love a veil does throw

Across our way;

We cannot see what lies before

And so we cling to Him the more,

He leads us till life is o'er;

Trust and obey

L.B. Cowman

2010-07-07T00:49:00.003-05:00

This weekend, enjoying a brief reprieve from the heat, Nate and I sat on a bench near our house while Sophia soaked herself in left over rain puddles. One of my favorite things about our neighborhood (read apartment complex) besides being very green (as in grass and foliage-not environmentally) are the song birds. They are such a nice surprise in our big city move. The apartment complex maintains feeders and bird houses. Their delightful melodies are an unexpected touch.

Despite my fondness for the song birds, as Nate and I chatted I grew increasingly alarmed at how they were attacking a beautiful hawk perched on a post nearby. After thirty minutes I finally remarked to Nate. "I think that hawk is wounded? It hasn't flown away. Those birds are all over it. They actually are pecking at it and it hasn't moved." Seriously concerned for the hawks safety I began to wonder if I should call animal control? "Nate, I actually feel sorry for the hawk--do you think we should do something?" Immediately after the words came out of my mouth the hawk took a couple of hops bounding into the air and out of sight. Without any effort it swept right past us giving us a great look of the struggling baby bird in its talons.

We were silent for a moment without missing a beat Nate asked "Still feel sorry for the hawk?"

And Then We Danced

2010-07-05T11:59:00.006-05:00

"There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plan and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh a time to mourn and a time to dance." Ecc 3:1-4

Sophia firmly believes Texas is synonymous with dance. We've been binging on it since our arrival, between dress-up with cousins, ballerina birthday parties and dance-camp at church its been a little girls dream! Soon we'll start soccer, preschool and a variety of well-rounded activities but for now it's dance!

These Days

2010-07-05T11:50:00.003-05:00

Life is starting to feel a little bit more like home with lotz of special time with cousins.

This is Sophia and I adjusting to the heat. With the hurricane in the gulf the recent rain has eased the heat but a couple weeks in the high 90's turned us both into afternoon Zombies. Thank heavens for air conditioning and swimming pools

2010-06-17T10:44:00.003-05:00

I have just a second to lift my head out of the chaos for a quick update. Our move is going well, of course it's still ongoing b/c the boxes seem like they'll NEVER end. But little by little it's starting to feel more like home.

We packed up Friday drove through the night and unloaded Saturday morning. My husband was wonderful driving a 26 footer the whole way and unloading it into our new garage (with help from wonderful cousins) Despite all we accomplished the fatigue started to get to me and by Saturday evening I felt like my world had ended. Looking at stacks of boxes all I could think was "I want my mommy."

If I ever doubted God's personal investment in our affairs--Sunday my mother called to say she was flying home from California via Texas and if we'd take her she could spend the night? If we'd take her!!!!! It was short--sweet--and absolutely wonderful. Another God send (have I mentioned my cousins???) has been Auntie Yinda (that's Sophia speak for Aunt Linda) She's been picking her up from Dance Camp (more on that later) feeding her and letting her play with her two wonderful daughters. What a gift to see Sophia just binge out on family.

Other tidbits that remind me how thankful I am:

Sophia: Mommy, what's the weather going to be like today?

Mommy: Well baby, just like yesterday and the day before--hot and sunny!

Sophia--mommy if we leave for a trip can we come back to Texas?

In Search of Home Sweet Home

2010-06-08T14:46:00.005-05:00

Lord willing, this Thursday we'll be loading up a U-haul and Friday we'll be hitting the road for our new home. For several months, Sophia has been asking for a home of our own.

"Can we have our own home where Nana can come visit?" February

"What about our white house? Can't we live there?" March

"Dear Jesus, help daddy find a job and a home that Hannah and Go& Go can come play." April

I have to admit that I'm really looking forward to settling down, moving in and staying in!. Getting Sophia involved in everyday stuff like dance & soccer. Thank you in advance for your prayers during this transition. We are so grateful for the time we've spent living with Nana & Papa and for all the relationships in Iowa that will always means so much to Everyones welcome to join us southern style!

The Face of Recession, Then and Now

2010-06-01T21:49:00.004-05:00

Ansel Adams, Andy Warhol, Dorthea Lange , a taste of the powerful names and images for sale this month as the Polaroid Collection hits the auction block.

The face or the burdened migrant mother in this Dorthea Lange photo left an indelible mark on my young life. Awakening me to the power of story hanging in a moment and the pull of wanderlust to find today's irrefutable story waiting around the bend, to find it, feel it and share it. I've never been gifted with the lens but I love and respect it's power.

Today, the demise of Polaroid, brought down partially by technology and partially by a Madoff like Ponzi scheme give this haunting image of financial hardship a whole new story. Either it will be a sad story of financial ruin or one of giant reinvention. Who knows? Polaroid hired Lady Gaga in January to be a Creative Director.

The World According to My Four Year Old

2010-05-24T20:31:00.004-05:00

Overheard at my house:

"Mommy, I'm making a chore list for us to do in the morning!" Can you tell what we've been up to lately?

Making breakfast. "Mommy, did the toaster sneeze?"

In the mall, VERY loudly. "Mommy that boy is wearing earrings like I do!"

Getting ready for the morning. "Mommy, this shirt is too big it shows my nibbles."

Walking through Target, Sophia spotted a staff member carrying an armload of register tape. "Mommy, that's awful tiny toilet paper!"

Life Lessons

2010-05-18T11:23:00.007-05:00

Our family has always had a lot of maps and globes around the house. We even tried the multiple clocks from multiple time zones in the kitchen, but the ticking (OH THE TICKING!) drove me crazy. (On that note I have half a dozen white matching clocks if anyone needs one!)

We've had a lot of geography lessons the past couple of years keeping up with daddy and Kaga (grandpa) It's like a global 'Where's Waldo?'

Last night Daddy explained to Sophia why he couldn't play another game of Cootie because he needed to talk to people on the other side of the world. Getting out a little globe he demonstrated it was night time for us and Daddy doesn't like to work at night, but it was morning on the other side of the world in Asia.

Trying to be a good teacher I went hunting for a flashlight to play the part of a sun in our little object lesson. Mommy was in for an object lesson too. I learned that in case of emergency NONE of our flash lights work! Strangely enough all of them are missing random pieces or batteries but the most telling sign is that all of them are covered in tiny finger prints and slightly sticky. Hmm??

With or without a flashlight this was better than my failed American geography lesson. Our vintage US puzzle was missing a piece, one state that I seriously couldn't identify. So who did I ask? My foreign born, green-card-holding husband--immediately he got it. Wyoming! How embarrassing!

Saturday Morning Inspiration

2010-05-15T11:32:00.002-05:00

Change is in the air for the Ndjerareou's. Friday ended Nate's second week working for a new job! (Praise the Lord) He'd resigned at the end of February desperately in need of a rest and work that he could be passionate about (if it helped the third world even better!)

We're very thankful that he found all three so that the accompanying move to Dallas is just the next step on our journey. Don't get me wrong I HATE to say goodbye but our family is a little desperate to settle down. Especially since we'll be adding another member to our little clan this December! (One more thing to be thankful for!)

I guess you could say the nesting phase has begun or the thought of moving our family into an apartment while we get to know our new city has got the creative desperation flowing. Along the way I have to share a couple of great ventures and ideas:

Apartment Therapy

Little Dresses for Africa

Tutorial: Hanging Book Display

Food & Memories

2010-05-10T11:39:00.004-05:00

Our family enjoys travel especially when we get to explore the local cuisine. My favorite memories with Sophia include exploring local markets and trying our hand at the exotic dishes at home. It brings back memories of my fearless mother, plunging into African markets with a boisterous laugh and a fierce love of haggling.

She's a great cook with a huge repertoire of Americana recipes in her head. Somehow I really never learned how to make anything traditional from her. Instead she impressed on me a love for trying our hand a something different that comes out of one big pot and takes an assortment of indigenous spices.

Asian, African, Mexican. Especially if it's got cilantro in it! Sophia and I put these two recipes together last week and all the elements took us back to Mexico. It was so good I had to share. Even that vivacious mother of mine who doesn't really appreciate cilantro LOVED it! Let me know what you think or even better share a recipe you've fallen for!

Better Homes and Gardens Sweet Potato Hash

Cilantro Chicken

2010-05-07T10:06:00.005-05:00

"We have to pray with our eyes on God, not on the difficulties. " ~Oswald Chambers

In the past few months I've been distracted by the difficulties and frustrated by God's silence. Life's handed me enough experience know that God uses the silence to teach us to listen deeper. This time through the valley it was my husband's journey. The past few months have been about Nate & God, that's a new experience for me. Now that it's over I can say it's been a privilege to walk this road with him.

But I didn't come here to whine, that's partly why I've been so quiet. I believe in authenticity and sincerity in faith, but this was Nate's journey. The last thing he needed was my public venting. Thank you for your patience and your prayers. I promise more details soon.

I'm just starting to see how many prayers God has answered. My sweet grandfather came through surgery wonderfully and that only added to the list of prayer requests God has smiled on recently. In His own way He waited until we were at the end of our spiritual, emotional and financial resources. Perhaps that's why I got angry? But now these answered prayers feel like tangible expressions of our faith and everything seems sweeter. Thank you Lord for being bigger than our difficulties!

Thank you for your prayers

2010-05-04T20:19:00.002-05:00

Wednesday morning, my maternal grandfather will be having a somewhat risky surgery. Thanks you for remembering us in your prayers.

Happy 5th Anniversary Darling!

2010-04-16T11:18:00.001-05:00

"Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved." Victor Hugo

Dallas Recap

2010-04-15T12:27:00.006-05:00

Abigail in her Easter clothes, everyone was having a melt-down before church but this one managed a great smile!

Monkey See Monkey Doo! The girls decided they were going to exercise! They did most of the video too!

Hannah showing off her dance moves!

Lovely Edna the baby whisperer!

Easter dancing! Why else would you wear a pretty dress and frilly sock if not to dance?
The girls want to get in on Eric & Banga's push up contest!

Yes it is Hannah!

Let The Little Children Come Unto Me. . .

2010-03-26T11:20:00.003-05:00

Recently, I got grumpy with Sassy. Simply being kid she delights in EVERY little bit of life around her. Flowers, bugs, her toes, it doesn't really matter these days. She LOVES life and can't wait to inspect it thoroughly! I was running late as usual so my patience was wearing thin. Innocently, she started singing.

"And Jesus grew, in wisdom and stature and in favor with God and men." (Luke 2:52)

The little ditty stopped me in my tracks. Without saying anything, Sophia , and the Lord, (by way of this little scripture verse) reminded me she's barely four! She deserves my patience and grace. After all, even Jesus was a little kid once!

Auntie Minga, blessed us with these Bible verse cd's on our trip to Dallas and they've melted my heart almost everyday. Sophia LOVES music and quickly puts things to memory. But hearing her BELT Bible verses makes me smile and thank God almost every morning. I've even caught Nate and I singing them! Thanks Minga! We just had to share!

Back To the Drawing Board

2010-03-23T15:57:00.004-05:00

Words - so innocent and powerless as they are, as standing in a dictionary, how potent for good and evil they become in the hands of one who knows how to combine them. ~Nathaniel Hawthorn

To me, the greatest pleasure of writing is not what it's about, but the inner music the words make. ~Truman Capote, McCall's, November 1967

A writer and nothing else: a man alone in a room with the English language, trying to get human feelings right. ~John K. Hutchens, New York Herald Tribune, 10 September 1961

The difference between the right word and the almost right word is the difference between lightning and a lightning bug. ~Mark Twain

Writers are not just people who sit down and write. They hazard themselves. Every time you compose a book your composition of yourself is at stake. ~E.L. Doctorow

The maker of a sentence launches out into the infinite and builds a road into Chaos and old Night, and is followed by those who hear him with something of wild, creative delight. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

It's time for my bi-annual rant on writing!! When I ask why I'm so committed to calling myself a writer? I love the feeling of words flowing from my hands, whether it's the scratch of a pen on a lined journal page or the click clack of the keyboard. Something in my mind clears when I map out my thoughts on paper. So writing should be simple? Then why does it seem like a psycho wandering into socially acceptable madness? Down the rabbit hole into creativity, peeling back the layers of the soul. That's just for a first draft!

Traveling Times

2010-03-19T13:45:00.005-05:00

Audio books will always be my first love. They instantly take me back to story time as a kid, or hearing my mother read The Chronicles of Narnia. A story is a magical experience especially with a human voice giving it life.

When Pieces of Glass came out in a Kindle edition I decided to educate myself on the trend. I'm especially pleased by the work of Worldreader who's experimenting with Kindle's in the developing world! Brilliant!

I'll always be an avid collector of paper copy, the touch, the feel. Surrounding yourself in a library is like sitting with old friends with new adventure a page turn away.

As a traveler though, e-readers solve the classic dilemma of how many books can I fit in one suitcase? I'm all for anything that gets more people reading more books and that makes me pro e-reader in whatever version you prefer. Don't take my word for it. Here's a few trends you might find interesting:

The E-book and the Future of Reading: Christian Science Monitor

Kindle Comes to a Classroom in Ghana:Wired Magazine

Kindle Books Outsell Real Books this Christmas

For the true tech family--check these out too!

Iphone apps to get kids reading!

Something Old. . Something New. . Something Borrowed

2010-03-17T17:31:00.005-05:00

The Philanthropist This is a great show-- I wish I'd been able to support and lobby for! Plus note the beautiful bi-racial couple, they're smart and globally minded!

The Marriage Ref This is a current show to rally around, just like its tag line. "Keep fighting it's worth it!" I know their referring to marriage, but after the critics panned it--I'm fighting for it. After all if you can't laugh in you're marriage it's over.

Remington Steele I don't know why I watch TV anymore? With schedules and commercials? How inconvenient? Only because Big Bang Theory isn't on Hulu yet! Now that I can watch every old eighties show I don't think I'll ever watch it again! Plus that's classic fashion!

A Place of Our Own

2010-03-11T16:39:00.004-06:00

Is is time to stop living like this?

I simply wish I had the answer to this question--

and so many others.

'When I go from here 

let this be my parting word:

 That what I have seen 

is unsurpassable'

Rabindranath Tagore

Hope in the Eyes of Child

2010-03-09T20:59:00.004-06:00

Tonight, Linda and I were praying with the girls (Sophia & her cousins.) Sophia asked if we could sing "He's Got The Whole World In His Hands?" Singing out the names of their Aunties, Uncles, Grandparents and Cousins spread across the nations with the pure belief that they were safely in His hands really got to me. Their child like faith in God's supremacy makes my doubt stick like a lump in my throat.

My first instinct is fear, the shear fragility of life. I HOPE he does, baby! My heart wanted to say. Yet, while they sang my own battered faith grew ever so slightly until the refrain came up through my heart and out of my mouth. Please join me in prayer that God's hand will be evident in Jos, Nigeria.

Headlines Hit Home

2010-03-09T20:32:00.005-06:00

It's hard to imagine that we could be celebrating so much life only hours before death and hatred rumble into Jos, Nigeria and the surrounding areas. As news of the horrors being committed have started flowing over the airwaves, Linda (our host here in Dallas) and her siblings have been scrambling to get news of loved ones in their home town.

Nate & I have been grateful for the relationships we've been able to renew in the past year. We've been able to overcome distance and live alongside friends and family sharing stories, joy, humor and even heartache and burdens. Today in Texas though it's been a hard pill to swallow. Hard to be here and yet so powerless to help. Hard to be close and yet so far away. Thank you for your prayers for the Asake family and the people of Nigeria.

Princess Power!

2010-03-08T17:42:00.003-06:00

Sophia's birthday breakfast a treat from Auntie Linda!

Princess Tianna dress straight from Nana!

These two sleepy heads sure look alike! And yes she slept with a hairbow in! When in Texas!

Birthday Surprise!

2010-03-08T17:22:00.003-06:00

When Sassy first asked to have her ears pierced I smiled! Spending six weeks with our African cousins was rubbing off. Since it's very traditional for little African girls and Nate's sisters got their ears pierced in the first year of their lives, he was on board.

Personally, I'd begged to get mine when I was 12 living at Rift Valley Academy (a boarding school) in Kenya. My mother was positive my roommate would botch the job and conceded if I'd only let her take me to a professional. Point of fact--said roommate is now Harvard graduate and a doctor but who knew?!

Ultimately it was the fact that Sophia's present was the perfect gift for a junior traveler that cracked me up! Think about it--earrings take up no space, she won't loose 'em, and they don't require batteries. I guess our lifestyle is rubbing off in more ways than I could imagine!

Happy Birthday Dear Sophia!

2010-03-08T17:04:00.001-06:00

Sophia turned 4 this Saturday and made her own birthday cupcakes to celebrate!

Sophia's cousin Hannah!

Let the Sugar Rush Begin!

Birthday girls! Sophia Ndjerareou & her cousin Simone Ashiya Asake born March 5, 2010

Pack Lightly, Carry a Big. . . Heart

2010-03-01T14:44:00.010-06:00

A month on the road and I notice I'm sending my daughter to school in the same few outfits. Not a big problem, more like a personal hang-up. It really doesn't matter when you're on the road meeting new people constantly. But now we're in a new environment with limited closet space, sending Sophia to school every other day.

Realizing it truly doesn't matter has been the best part. Call it-minimalism, anti-consumerism, or simply life on the road. No one else seems to notice. Nate & Sophia love wearing their favorite clothes often. Personally, I have enough scarves (necessity of cold weather) jewelry (necessity of being a girl) and jackets to really make it an art project. Honestly, it's the way the rest of the world lives. Less stuff more personality.

Recent inspiration helps to develop this as an intention rather than a consequence.

Simplify Saturday

Uniform Project February Inspiration

Got any tips for me?

School Days

2010-02-15T15:30:00.006-06:00

This morning Sophia went to her first day of pre-school. Even writing it makes her sound all grown-up. I'd be tempted to mourn her baby days if this opportunity hadn't been such a minor miracle. After all our family only arrived in Dallas a week ago. How did we stumble on a Christian pre-school that took her admission immediately, at a reasonable rate and even suggested we use their clinic as our primary doctor while were in town? It's a simple answer-- God.

If we hadn't been living like urban nomads for the last year the ease at which this all came about (during a record Texas snow fall I might add) might have gone over my head. I've tried to enroll Sophia in pre-school before and the waiting lists alone were daunting to me--even for a mom's day out program. I rarely know where our family is going to be month-to-month so sign-up sheets terrify me.

The result of our unknown expeditions has been a lot of mini homeschooling (she's only three) and sight seeing, using whatever museums were available locally. In fact, we're heading out tomorrow to get our third library card in three different states in one year. (Don't worry we don't abuse it--I'm a HUGE believer in the library system)

What surprised me about our recent endeavor was that no one batted an eye lash as I explained our unusual situation. "That's our ministry, we help you through transition." Remarked the lovely administrator of the Wycliffe Child Care Center at the International Linguistic Center ACROSS THE STREET from my mother-in-law's house. Of course it's no coincidence that we're here since God is in control of all things and Nate's mom works at the center. But leave it to missionaries to have perfected a transitional system! Even though we're raising a third generation, glob al nomad, it still knocked my socks off at how smooth it's been for us.

Picking Sophia up this afternoon I was smothered in hugs, painted pictures and cut outs. She proudly informed me, "I can come to this school EVERY day, Mommy!" I think we'll start with three days a week. I'm not sure mommy can handle being all by herself, but I'm so thankful Sassy has such a great place to grow!

Psalm of the Traveler

2010-02-11T11:20:00.006-06:00

'No one's going to believe were in Texas!' Nate remarked as I scurried to catch a picture of a curious llama saying hello through the window (I'll save you from the picture of the backside of a llama.) That was yesterday, and now there's at least four inches of snow on the ground and it's still coming down!

You can imagine how grumpy I was waking up this morning to see that I haven't really escaped winter after all and this was the attitude that I took to my devotional.

¹ I lift up my eyes to the hills—

where does my help come from?

² My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

³ He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

⁴ indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

⁵ The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

⁶ the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

⁷ The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

⁸ the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore Psalm 121:1-8

The more I studied it the more I realized that it was the perfect Psalm for this unusual day. The Psalmist (a fellow traveler) and I are both at the mercy of the elements, far from home, in need of a reminder that God is in control. He is my Protector, the Creator of the sun, the moon and even the snow. He is watching over my life, my coming's and going's, even the slippery road's. This morning, I got on my knee's in attempt to shed my grumpy, ungrateful attitude and thank God for his protection and his creation but especially for loving me and watching over every step this wanderer takes, snow and all.

Southern Sojourn

2010-02-09T11:32:00.003-06:00

“Traveling is a brutality. It forces you to trust strangers and to lose sight of all that familiar comfort of home and friends. You are constantly off balance. Nothing is yours except the essential things – air, sleep, dreams, the sea, the sky – all things tending towards the eternal or what we imagine of it.” – Cesare Pavese

“For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel’s sake. The great affair is to move.” – Robert Louis Stevenson

One’s destination is never a place, but a new way of seeing things.” – Henry Miller

Hitting publish on my last blog I realized I'd encapsulated all the places we'd been but none of the magic that made it thrilling. Our latest trip has been an old school road trip with long stretches of road and time without excitement. It's been one of our crazier ventures simply b/c we only needed to fill the car and go. Even days before we left as I was procrastinating packing I wondered why we were leaving AGAIN? These thoughts get overwhelming when I'm trying to pack for a trip full of unknowns-when are we coming home--no idea. Where are we going--have only a slight idea. What will it be like--no clue? So why do we do it?

We love coming home to our mid-west enclave of cherished friends and family. But a brutal winter and family needs far away weren't the only thing that was drawing us back to the road. An inner restlessness, that old North wind that stirs up my imagination or the Holy Spirit calling us onto some type spiritual adventure, Nate and I both felt the need to move. The best way I can explain it is like physical problem solving, when my body is moving my spirit is processing.

Despite the unknowns and the misgivings, I've learned to trust Nate's leading especially when God's impressing the same peace into my heart. Leaving Iowa behind in the dead of night, Indiana, Kentucky, Tennessee began to roll past our window with the welcome warmth of day. Something else happened and continues to happen much to our amazement. Inspiration has trickled in through the long hours of talking and listening. We also listened to others journeys and found hope. Stone's into Schools by Greg Mortenson, sequel to Three Cups of Tea, bled personal experience with amazing development practices into our minds and souls still reeling from our intense journey through Africa.

The road is like a bridge between yesterday and tomorrow, the space between real life and our dreams. In a time of constant connectivity it's the silence, the mountain top experience where God can whisper. These past few days we've seen God smile on our sojourn, old friendships renewed, life celebrated, family cherished, heart ache spilled and softened. I even see hope in the flat tire that waited until we were safe in the arms of family here in Dallas.

The use of traveling is to regulate imagination by reality, and instead of thinking how things may be, to see them as they are.” –Samuel Johnson

ROAD TRIP

2010-02-07T23:29:00.004-06:00

This last week we did 24 hours worth of driving in 72 hours!

Early Wednesday morning Nate, Sophia & I headed to Chicago to pick up Auntie Minga! Great help on a road trip with a three year old! Sophia's such a trooper, I tried to put her to bed and then put her sleeping in the car but she was SO excited! She couldn't sleep until we got rolling (at midnight!) Complete with kids neck pillow, blanket and eye mask from our last international flight--the minute we got on the road she was out! What a pro!

Chicago to Atlanta late Wednesday. Thursday onto Fort Benning, Georgia to celebrate 'Unca Banga's' graduation from Officer Candidate School and his promotion to 2nd Lieutenant! What a privilege to express our support for our troops! Talk about motivating!

Thursday night we said goodbye and hit the road (sans Minga) heading toward Texas. Sophia knew her favorite cousin Hannah was at the end of the road nothing would get in her way.

It was a strange experience to road trip after so much flying! We still have the chops thanks to lotz of audio books (new recommendations coming soon!) our newest addition a portable DVD player loaded with Backyardigans. Admittedly, it hasn't been warm in Dallas since we landed Friday, but I'll take 43 and pray for an early spring. It's been a blast to hangout with cousins and celebrate with our hosts Linda & Eric Darjean, Eric hails from Louisiana. Go Saints!

A CHALLENGE FOR THE NEXT 30 YEARS

2010-02-01T02:06:00.005-06:00

WITH ALL MY HEART

This is the first thing commanded of me

To love You with all You've made me to be

Living a life pleasing to You

Be humble in all that I do

With all of my heart

With all of my soul

With all of my mind

I love you Lord

With every part of me

Lord I will worship Thee

All that I'll ever be I give to You

~Words & Music by Dave Fife

2010-01-31T19:38:00.005-06:00

Living, we cover vast territories; 
imagine your life drawn on a map--  
a scribble on the town where you grew up,
  each bus trip traced between school and home,
 or a clean line across the sea to a place you flew once.
 Think of the time  and things we accumulate,
 all the while growing more conscious of losing and leaving.
 Aging,our bodies collect wrinkles and scars 
for each place the world would not give under our weight. 
Our thoughts get laced with strange aches, 
sweet as the final chord that hangs in a guitar's blond torso.
-First Gestures, Julie Kesdorf

The Cure for Winter Weather!

2010-01-27T20:23:00.005-06:00

Unexpected Delight: Bourne Identity meets Murder She Wrote. That unlikely comparison was my first thought then I found out that Angela Landsberry actually did this book as a mini-series in the nineties! A witty, caring and wise widow volunteers for the CIA much to Langely's surprise. Her guile, tenacity, and insight surprise even her foes. Plus even my daughter likes these stories, they're family friendly (always a plus around my house!)We picked up this delightful audio book at our local library but I was so thrilled when I pushed play and recognized the much beloved voice of Barbara Rosenblat! This is a great cure for the winter blahs-but don't take my word for it! Mystery Writers of America recently awarded Mrs. Pollifax creator Dorthy Gilman the honor of Grand Master for her body of work. Scrumptious Surprise: Found this at a dollar store days before we went to Africa! So glad I did! Eloquent story telling and historical novel interwoven with complex themes in a surprisingly easy to read book. Written by a member of the Saudi royal family, it's a page turner. I can't wait to read some of her other work!

The Reason For God: Tim Keller Insightful, philosophical and yet very approachable. Another one I picked up from our local library. Tim Keller is widely liked at Imago Christi and I wanted to see what it was all about.

The Nautical Chart: Arturo Perez-Reverte A modern macho showdown off the coast of Spain. Searching for sunken treasure in troubled waters in the ocean and between the crew. This was an intriguing book that left me slightly unsatisfied. But I rarely finish books I don't like and I knew I HAD to finish this one. I'll let you decide.

Sophia McGyver

2010-01-19T12:35:00.002-06:00

I shouldn't have been surprised to see Sophia squirl away a toothbrush and a magazine when she moped back to bed. She'd informed me that she couldn't sleep trying to be sly while she rescued the items. When I pulled back the covers and saw she'd added a flashlight and two pot holders to the mix? She looks sweet and innocent but it makes me wonder? Is she planning an escape?

Yesterdays News

2010-01-15T16:56:00.003-06:00

Here's the good news: Coming up on five years of marriage and I can guess my husbands 'honey, I'm sorry but my flights been delayed' voice before he actually says it. Unfortunately, I think it's because I've had WAY too much practice. It doesn't help that I'm NOT a patient person.

Here's the bad news: Current events have SERIOUSLY increased international airport security on US bound flights. Ironically, we didn't experience anything like this coming from Copenhagen a week ago. From what I can tell, it's something the Canadian government is enforcing that came down the pike Thursday. Possibly in response to recent events or information unknown to the general public. According to Nate (who missed his flight due to multiple searches, pat down's, and having to clear out his carry on of every but a laptop and a paper) security measures heading out of the country are non-eventful but coming back demands extra hours.

With Nate jumping the globe, he's in Montreal this week,the jokes about him being a spy are easy--days like today I wish he was. The kind with their own helicopter that would drop him in the backyard just in time for dinner. Ahh well, nice to know our Canadian neighbors have our back.

Unforgettable Moments

2010-01-13T23:10:00.008-06:00

There's a saying in Chad, rather silly but poignant now. Instead of saying 'cheese' before a picture, someone laughingly would say 'merci Kodak!' Now, thousands of miles away,I understand the sentiment. Thank you Kodak, or Cannon I guess, for giving me a piece of Africa to warm my heart on a cold winter night. Proof it wasn't just a dream, but a special gift to laugh, live and love along side our family on the other side of the world. Merci Kodak for letting us bring a piece oof the wonderful smiling faces and moments home.

Homeward Bound!

2010-01-07T03:09:00.001-06:00

Feeling a little lost at the moment. Possibly due to constant moving and lotz of suitcases.
Writting from the airport in Paris. Just spent the night here and onto Copenhagen then Chicago. Flip a coin and we might spend the night in Chicago. We'll see how the flights go.
Then on to home. Thanks for your continued prayers!

Holiday Happenings

2009-12-28T03:46:00.002-06:00

Sophia and Daddy with the first of a several 'gifts' we've been given in our travels. Call it a meal on wheels--Sophia hasn't really made the connection but thinks it's funny when the chicken gets to ride in the car with us. For daddy it's brought back memories of long road trips with his father, the venerable pastor. Sharing the back of the car with a virtual menagarie of 'gifts' that clucked and baa'd at every bump. The stories still make me giggle but the generosity of the people who share so much when they have so little isn't lost on me.
Christmas Eve, Sophia & Kaga make popcorn! In the family courtyard. Even in Africa we got colds and both Nate's parents were cut down with the flu over Christmas. Due to a dry year there's been alot of dust in the air so it's taken awhile for all of us to adjust to the weather. Feeling better and appreicate your prayers!
Santa even comes to Chad! Sophia was so surprised to see a package of M&M's and a little car that lights up--opens it's doors and sings a strange little Arabic song. She loved it! So have the little kids around here!
Our family stopping at Nate's mother's village of Gore (pronounced Goh-re) outside Doba Christmas day with Kaga Tele--She used to care for Nate & his older brother when they were babies. A priviledge to see her. We came back several times and enjoyed every trip. Almost like stepping back in time to see how this industrious lady lives off the land. Shelling huge bushels of peanuts, chickens, drying sorgum, baobob fruit and anything else edible.
Kaga Tele's kitchen!
Traveled down to Doba Christmas day and visited Nate's best friend from childhood and his new bride. Armand & Prudence. What an amazing experience! Traveling towards the oil fields you can see a civilization changing (for better and worse) villages with street lights and cans of diet pepsi! Armand gave us an incredible view of the changing landscape here since he's an agricultural consultant. Also got to visit an evangelistic crusade being lead by local pastors on Christmas day (We dropped Nate's father off for the service) The evangelical crusade started over the holiday with people then setting out on foot in groups to the nearby villages for door to door witnessing. As the child of missonaries this was an incredible Christmas gift to witness. So was visiting a local church of 650 and hearing Nate's father preach.

2009-12-23T05:20:00.002-06:00

Grandma & her twin sister. I'm covering my head b/c we're about to pray. When we first got here in the early hours of the morning. I'd thought I'd lost my make-up bag. It was crazy how much it through me for a loop. Granted I was running on only a few hours sleep-but it was like someone was asking me to go naked. Now, it seems even funnier when I see how badly it didn't matter. The funny part was Nate's reaction--I was trying to be brave but he was very empathetic--almost too empathetic. Helped me let go a little. Letting go of self and letting God in. It's been very cathartic!

Paris and Chad Pictures

2009-12-23T03:37:00.005-06:00

Wow see the family resemblence? She's not worried-just copying Great Grandma (Kaga) My mother-in-law's mother. She is getting very good at reading people and copying what they do. Lotz of handshaking etc. . .
This moment made my year and definately my trip. Kaga is was unsure if she'd ever see us again and told us that if she didn't see her again until heaven it would be okay.

Of course Nate would slip this 'important' picture in with all of our family pictures. I've learned to let him gawk whenever we're at the airport. Every vactation it seems like we come home with more pictures of airplanes than of people!! Hazard of the road I guess!

Sophia at the Louvre. It was closed so we spent the day at the Musee D'Orsay. A good way to stay out of the cold and I got to wander with Monet's, Degas',Mucha's, Manet's it was a wonderful Christmas present from my family to see these all with my own eyes. After this we wandered up the Champs Elyses Christmas Market, drinking hot chocolate and hot wine!

Merry Christmas from Great Greatpa & Great Grandma! A trip to the Eiffel Tower and one or two around the carosel across the bridge. Then bowls of hot Onion Soup at another outdoor Parisian Christmas Market. Very pretty, very cold, but very pretty!

Anyone remeber this scene from the new Sabrina? Taking pictures with a scarf!

We've Arrived!!!

2009-12-22T04:24:00.003-06:00

The Chadian people have a beautiful custom that I've grown to cherish. Upon entering a crowd or a room every individual takes a moment to shake hands with EVERYONE. Women, children-you name it-everyone gets greeted. As a foreigner in far away place this little action gives me so much hope and dignity every time. No matter how much of a barrier of language or culture divide this welcoming gesture has become a humanizing bridge making me feel at home over and over again multiple times a day. It's also a wonderful metaphor for the warm, friendly people we've encoutered at every stage of our journey.
We arrived in N'djamena,Chad about 2 am Friday morning. The late night trip was softened by the fact that we got to fly in first class! But sitting next to a Norwegian UN Nurse in full battle fatigues and blue barret brought a little reality into our picture. N'djamena is a stepping off point for Darfur and so there is a considerable UN presence here. Think of the movie Sahara without the explosions and the treasure and you'll get a picture of our surroundings.

On Sunday we headed South about 7 hours by car to the family home in the south. It's a bit cooler but the mosquitos are out in force. It's also a little less heated politicaly so it's a little more relaxed.

We got a chance to see Nate's grandparents yesterday. Very touching. I'm really honored to be among these beautiful people, they are gracious, kind and full of joy. Even among dust and poverty there is a beautiful sense of life here. The smiles and laughter will always stay with me.

I've never been to Chad but Africa as a whole hasn't changed much for me-except that everyone has a cell phone and you can buy bottle water on the street corner!

I can tell that the prayers of all of you are lifting us up b/c of the peace that is overwhelming us even when the little inconveniences take their toll. It's also been powerful to have my time in Africa as a child come back and serve as a foundation here. I'm very thankful for that and the fact that we can experiece all of this together.

Sophia is doing well she made quick friends in Ndjemena with her cousins--the language difference didn't mean anything to her and they little cousins cried when we headed south.

Down here it's a little tougher, the children are a little more timid but we're using baloons and treats to help her bridge the gap. Her bravery is extraordinary and I can learn alot from her warm heart in the face of so much unknown. I'm thankful that she developed a taste for rice and sauce since she's been eating like a champ! She's even picking up a couple words in French. She asks about Shueyvill at night and wants to know if Nana & Papa went on a trip too? Thank you for your continued prayers over her transistion.

Lastly, I'm so thankful for my amazing husband, his people and the Godly legacy he comes from. What an amazing adventure we're having and I'm so proud to come home with him. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! (Did I mention it gets up to 90 here and down to 68 at night?)
We love you all and are so thankful for your continued prayers!

The Countdown Begins. . .

2009-11-15T22:40:00.005-06:00

Less than one month to till Nate, Sophia & I head to Chad, my husband's home country. It's crunch time. For the record we're only going to be there for two weeks. But like any adventure, we'll live a lifetime in every moment. We appreciate your prayers as we prepare to be reunited with family & friends.

Our official itinerary is:

1. December 12 through the 16th in Paris

2. December 17 through January 5 - N'djamena and Southern Chad.

3. January 6th in Paris

4. January 7th - head back to Iowa

Please pray for every step of the trip.

Oh look, my daughter's the raisin fairy!

2009-11-12T22:58:00.006-06:00

Everyday musings from my house:

"Daddy! The new mayor just won by 62%." Sophia informed Nate this past month. Obviously impressed.

"Oh?" Daddy asked.

"Yep, he's going to give Pooh Bear band-aids to all the children!"

"Mommy, I'm not scared." Sophia informed me during a Disney movie."I'm just looking under my blanket."

"Would you like A or B?" Nana asked Sassy giving her two options for lunch.

"Nana, that's not letters. It's cheese!"

"I think I just took an anti-biotic and a pro-biotic?" I remarked to Nate confused. Without missing a beat. "May the best pill win!"

Tuesday Tips: A Couple of Page Turners & a Hole in the Wall

2009-11-09T21:34:00.007-06:00

The Bellini Card by Jason Goodwin

I read it in four days. It's my favorite combination; historical fiction & mystery about Renaissance art with a great Byzantine Empire & Istanbul twist. A couple gory parts but that's why I love reading--easily skippable. Other than that very good & clean! (Available at your local library--support your library donate your time and/or books!)

The Tears of the Giraffe by Alexander McCall Smith

I've read several of McCall's books but I don't share them here b/c I personally find them so-so. However, the No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency series (this is one of them) are great! Especially paired with Lissete Lecat as an audio book! Her African accents are sooooo good! This one is especially good! It's like being there! (Also available at the Cedar Rapids Public Library)

Thai Flavors-Iowa City. Fabulous little place with great fresh cuisine. Coconut milk, fresh ginger, lemongrass, peanuts. If you love any of these in combinations you'll LOVE this place.

Dark Day's of Motherhood

2009-11-07T23:09:00.006-06:00

Friday was a bad day as my family's learned to call it. Fibromyalgia strikes again. This time though something is different. This past year I began praying for God to help me with my health. Although, I've been battling with fibro symptoms for over fifteen years in numerous forms, I'd never specifically asked the Lord for help. Until being Sophia's mother brought to light just how sick I'd become. The chronic, ongoing, fatigue's become crippling. Hearing your toddler crying --No mommy don't lie down again. Pounded me with another kind of pain unlike anything I'd felt before. The inability to engage, my beautiful little girl, day in and day out.

Nate's flexible schedules brought another voyeur into my difficult days. I'm eternally thankful for the kindness and grace my husband and my family have extended to me. But it made me see just how private my pains become.

You're not supposed to see this. I'd joke, at his concern over the groggy, somberness that no amount of coffee can kick. Think of it as trying to go to work with the flu, or a persistent hangover. Personally, I feel like I've got molasses running through my veins. My whole body is running sluggish and the engine in my brain just won't turn over.

This has been my life, until recently. A culmination of health choices & answered prayer, my family has witnessed a reanimated mom, sister, daughter, wife. Maybe that's why the blog's been a little quiet. I have so much more energy and so much to do!

It's been odd--to be on the other side of the looking glass. I keep thinking--is this how everyone else feels??? No wonder I never got anything done! The other day I spent all morning at play group, then took Sophia to the library and THEN went grocery shopping!!! All in one afternoon. The other day, in early morning conversation with my mom I moved to help her make a bed. She stepped back startled. "You don't want to crawl into it?" She asked trying to play down her amazement. It's been the little things that have helped me see how life is changing. (Hopefully, it's not just a flash in the pan.)

This Friday helped me see just how bad, my bad days had gotten. Instead of being the norm this was the anomaly. Every little thing about the day was difficult, like I couldn't stay ahead of her. She'd get upset and I couldn't think fast enough to discipline or redirect. The stiffness, flu like symptoms, frustration all add up. I could see just how debilitated I could be--for my little girl. Most days I can stay ahead of her, coaching, modeling, creating a structure that would help curb the frustration for both of us.

In the midst of a terrible day, I've got much to be thankful for. My amazing family that gives me support & grace. My little girl who's never stopped loving mommy no matter how tough the day's get. My faith for reminding me that God really does care about my health & body. And especially for good days!

Happy Halloween!

2009-11-01T20:54:00.004-06:00

Sophia & Unca Banga--On his way to Army Officer Training. We're so proud!
Sophia 'trick or treating at Gigi's!
Look at my little cheerleader pose! I have no idea where she gets it!
My brother Dana dressed up as his hero--the Roaming Gnome!
Sophia & her 'boys' as she calls them. Iron Man-Asher, Darth Vader-Gabe and little Zig Zag!
My little cheerleader with Uncle Fester & Grandmama (from the Adams family)

These two crack me up!!!! I had to share!
Sophia enjoying her sugar binge!!!
Trick or Treat with Sassy's biggest fan--Nana!

Sitting Pretty

2009-10-30T12:44:00.003-05:00

A lovely afternoon in the park beautifully captured Tiffanie Lloyd

Uncultured Persons

2009-10-26T10:23:00.003-05:00

Check This Out! My amazing family has a whole 'nother venture to brag about! And their amazingly comfortable too!

Texas: Big Family Country!

2009-10-26T09:52:00.006-05:00

Sophia & Cousin Hannah! Linda & I took the girls to a local tea room for a 'real' tea party! What a treat! They've been inseparable. I'm not sure they're going to handle being apart!?!

Joseph with Baby Joshua!

Sophia & Uncle Nodji (the first of LOTZ of family greetings Sassy got a little overwhelmed)

The happy couple. Our Chadian cousin & his "African Queen"

Their touching unity symbol.

Family: Linda & Eric Darjean with Hannah, Abigail and baby Joshua

A Day in the Life . . .

2009-10-22T12:58:00.006-05:00

Of the Ndjerareou family:

Nate discovered he only needed 150 miles to qualify for four free tickets (on two separate airlines). We'd been hoping to get to Dallas for a Chadian wedding.

Late Tuesday, Nate called from San Francisco--all Friday flights are booked but if we're willing we can leave Thursday morning from Cedar Rapids? Graciously, my husband offered to take Sophia on his flight and let me come later by myself. The fourth ticket would go to Banga!

Here's the hitch. . . Nate would leave San Fran Wednesday night spend the night in the air or airport (hopefully) landing in Cedar Rapids around 8:55am Thursday morning. Sophia and I met him at the airport with extra clean clothes, suit and blackberry charger.

After tonz of prayer and a little anxiety on my part (plane travel is like dating--you have to expect disappointment!)Miracle of miracle it worked! I got to spend about 10 minutes with him before kissing both Sophia and Nate and they were off again!

It's a funny thing traveling sans bebe! Suddenly, I'm getting nice comments about my shoes instead of Sophia's! The guy behind the counter was overly helpful informing me that my flight wouldn't be delayed because a pair of eyeballs were traveling with us. (Yeah it took me a minute too. I don't mean to be disrespectful that what he called it!! ) Turns out my flight is a med-flight and that nothing much would be delaying us!

Exhilarating information! Granted I'm just going to a wedding but you're catching the spirit of matter right! So without baby, well-coiffed (I actually had an hour by myself to get ready) and pumped up about the med-flight mission!

The guy at the metal detector seemed overly concerned about my new metalic necklace. Without thinking I winked and said: "You gotta live dangerously right???"

What can I say?? My flirting skills are REALLY rusty! This probably wasn't the BEST thing to say to our certifiably jumpy TSA crew!! I'm not sure that I pack my brain but I did make it through security.

I'm really looking forward to spending much needed time with family. And if our crazy plan works (I'm writing from the airport.) We'll be in time for the marathon African cooking day! I don't know what I'm more excited about? Eating the food or participating in the cooking? Hopefully I'll learn a new recipe or two!

Fall Fancy!

2009-10-20T23:36:00.006-05:00

Buy Local! Honey Creek Acres in Swisher!

Daddy Day at Gymnastics!

2009-10-19T11:54:00.008-05:00

Sophia showing off her stamps!

Cold weather sets mid-west mom's scrambling for inside play that gets the wiggles out.

Our family favorite is gymnastics. Sophia has no fear and so dropping into a pit of foam blocks is right up her alley. So is hanging, jumping, flipping, (pretty typical for three) and gymnastics uses all of their powers for good!

I was also thrilled to hear about Lunch Bunch a supervised open gym available everyday so parents can run errands while toddlers work on their back handspring!

Everyday Exotic: Butternut Squash Curry Recipe

2009-10-15T12:37:00.004-05:00

It's soup season! My favorite times in the kitchen involve a big pot with lotz of vegetables and spices simmering. Mixing a squash (a fall favorite) and curry (a family favorite) was something I had to try! We loved it. Hope you do too!

Granted pealing a squash is a pain staking (emphasis on pain) procedure that proves this is a Martha Stewart recipe. I've made it with two squash butternut and otherwise. I've also added meat. Browned immediately then saute your onions and add spices directly to the meat-onion mix to give this a hearty stew quality. Serve over rice and you have an entire meal in one bowl

Butternut Squash Curry

Martha Stewart Living

A tasty, low-calorie, high fiber vegetarian meal with a little bit of spice!

Ingredients

2 Medium butternut squashes

Peeled, halved, and seeded

1 Large onion

Cut into large chunks

4 Garlic cloves

3 cups + 1Tsp. Water

1tsp. Veg. oil

1tsp. Mustard seeds

1tsp. Fennel seeds

1/4tsp. Ground coriander

1 - 2 In. piece Ginger

Peeled and finely grated

(about 2 tsp. )

2tsp. Tomato paste

2tsp. Coarse salt

1/4tsp. Crushed red pepper flakes

2 cups Brown rice (cooked)

Fresh cilantro

Lime wedges

Preparation

1. Cut solid sections of sqaushes into large chunks and seed pod sections into 3/4in. thick wedges. Puree onion, garlic, and 1Tsp. water in blender until smooth.

2. Heat oil in 4qt. pot over med. heat. Add mustard seeds, fennel seeds, and coriander, cook until frangrant (1 to 2 min.) Stir in onion paste and ginger, cook, stirring often until caramelized ( 6 to 8 min. )

3. Add tomato paste, scraping bottom of pot if needed. Stir in remaining 3 cups water, salt, and crushed red pepper flakes. Add squash and cover partially, bring to a boil, reduce heat ans simmer gently until squash is tender ( 12 to 15 min. ) Serve over brown rice with cilantro and lime wedges

It's a Small, Small, World

2009-10-08T13:29:00.002-05:00

News of Typhoon M elor, reached us from a surprising source yesterday. While pushing kids on the swings in Bever Park, Allie, explained that work had been canceled in Japan shortly after her husband Nick arrived in order to prepare for an impending typhoon. This is Nick's first trip abroad, he's certainly going to have some stories to share upon his return. Keeping him & the people of Japan in our prayers.

Fall Fun

2009-10-08T09:49:00.004-05:00

The clouds were amazing, the sun was warm and Sophia was in a mood to play. I couldn't help but take my camera and capture some of the last vestiges of summer light.

A Fish Out of Water!

2009-09-29T21:49:00.004-05:00

It's that time of year again. THE AMAZING RACE! Always a dream for Nate & I. This year it's a litte bittersweet for two reasons: First, the manic travel and bizarre tasks are a little more like our daily life than in past years when it was pure escapism. Second, I'm realizing just how hard it's going to be to get 'in shape' like I'd like to be for the show. This past year has been a difficult struggle with fibromyalgia & exercise. At the same time it's made me even more motivated & I've borrowed some inspiration from Zev an Amazing Race player with Asperger's Syndrome who's already making an awesome impact on the world.

Back in the pool this week. Third swim since panic attack. First real workout. Learning to stretch my back out helps. The water is the one thing that can truly help with the pain. Tonight I'm going to sleep VERY well. Got a great tip from a swim coach friend for a personalized workout. According to their time trial I'm definitely a beginner. Oh well it's good to have goals.

A Taste of Chad

2009-09-28T16:18:00.003-05:00

I've been told every great African recipe starts the same, onions! Last night, with my mother's prodding I had a chance to share a family favorite that Minga taught me several years ago. Serving this dish as the main meal for our church dinner felt a little risky. Instead I was truly touched by how well it went over. I think Nate was a little disappointed we didn't have any to take home.

It constantly amazes me how food can be such a powerful bridge between worlds. I hope you enjoy this recipe as much as we do:

African Spinach & Peanut Stew

3 large onions

2 tbs olive oil

2 lbs ground beef

2 cans diced tomatoes

2 packets frozen spinach thawed and drained (if you choose to use fresh simply sauté it down with onions at the beginning.)

2 tbs garlic minced

Curry powder (curry powder is really a mix of seasonings like coriander, turmeric, pepper, ginger, etc any of these can be used to taste)

Season salt

2 cups creamy peanut butter.

In warm oil add garlic and onions and sauté until transparent. Add ground beef and brown. Add crushed red pepper or cayenne pepper, and curry to meat mixture. After browning meat, onions, and seasoning add thawed spinach to sauté mix. After spinach is mixed in add diced tomatoes, and finally peanut butter. Let simmer for 10-15 minutes and serve over rice.

Congratulations Mom!

2009-09-21T10:51:00.003-05:00

Mom joined the ranks of Dad & Lil' Bro as Certified SCUBA'S (what's the plural?)

Thanks for the inspiration mom!!!

P.S. Thank you all for your prayers & support. I'm feeling MUCH better.

Painful Reminder: Thursday Tirade

2009-09-17T13:36:00.004-05:00

Forgive me guys but I have to say it! I HATE my body. I'm not talking about the universal female pain of how I look in my jeans. This is a much more personal betrayal going on between my body and my mind. (Of course, the minute I start bragging about a workout my body starts rebelling. Right?)

Living below my massage therapist has come in handy once again. Mid-night, emergency massage, got me through what could be described as the mother of all panic attacks. It's been a lingering symptom of the fibromyalgia . Either way I think I aggravated something in my slightly aggressive swim routine. (I did a time trial and then about 300 meters free and backstroke-not that aggressive for most people-that's the tough part!) Being an athlete once upon a time-- I have to admit it's still my dream. One that sometimes gets the better of me.

The past few days I've limped back to yoga and hot baths trying to get the knot around my chest to loosen so I can take a deep breath. I'll admit I'm not quite sure if my body has betrayed me or if I betrayed my body? Isn't this the very reason I'm working out? To counter the the painful affects of fibro? Regardless, it smacked me back into reality with a vengeance!

Sigh, anyway. It's true what they say: I'm to young to feel this old!

Fibro Freedom

2009-09-15T21:45:00.003-05:00

Right now Sophia & I are crazy about charts! Sophia's(and mommy & daddy) working on sleeping all by herself in her big girl bed. She's earned a pair of roller skates & a little mermaid doll. (10 stickers) It's revealed to Nate & I a very driven little girl. She loves having a plan and working toward a goal! Were trying to capitalize on this virtue and coming up with other things for her to work-on.

Living with fibromyalgia I've come to realize that I can either hurt just because, or I can hurt because I've got a good workout. Plus, it really helps my energy and clearness of thought.

So mommy has her own chart. It doesn't have stickers on it but I do get a little thrill out of crossing off that workout EVERYDAY (well that's the goal at least) Currently Sassy's been one of my swim coaches! She has added pink swim goggles to her great little pink number. Flippers, goggles, pink swim suit. She's my little inspiration.

Sole Rebellion: Workout Woes

2009-09-14T22:14:00.005-05:00

“What spirit is so empty and blind, that it cannot recognize the fact that the foot is more noble than the shoe, and skin more beautiful than the garment with which it is clothed?” Michelangelo

I must have a very empty soul as empty as my favorite shoes! This summer I picked up a gorgeous pair of four inch wedges by Sofft. They're fabulous, so comfy I've been wearing them all the time! They're a little dramatic but that's right up my alley. Of course there's a catch. . .whenever I'd go for a walk in my tennis shoes I'd develop the WORST shin splints. Running was slightly better but I was dying.

Thankfully, my massage therapist figured out my center of gravity was off. Everything was on my heels. She recommended switching to flats for a while. I know how absolutely vain this sounds but suddenly ALL my pants are too long.

One week in flats and the legs are feeling better. My massage therapist is SO good ;) I'm never going to give up the heels, but everything in moderation. Right? Perhaps the foot is more noble, but it always looks better in great shoe!

Tuesday's Tips: Inspiration

2009-09-07T22:44:00.006-05:00

Some days inspiration feels like a trickle of water, or it's a fleeting glance. This weekend--it came in truckloads. From my mother of all places! She's been telling me about her cousin( her mother's brother's son.) Scott Schuman. The fashion world discovered Scott through that happy accident--the blog. Now it seems he's not just reporting on fashion he's changing the game. His beautiful & poignant blog has become the place to be seen.

The Sartorialist

The books invaded my mid-west book seller and I'm so proud to flaunt my family connetion. It's an art book for the whole family. It's approachable and exotic. Binge people watching with personal stories offered by the tender hearted photog with a great eye for fashion and human nature.

Julie & Julia

Another blog gone big! A beautiful (and clean) story of real people searching for inspiration. A great date movie (especially if you're married!)

State Of Play

A good rental if you want a thinking movie. Feels like a combo between All the President's Men & The Manchurian Candidate with Russel Crowe thrown in for good measure. (It's clean and interesting--but I found myself missing Russel Crowe in the Master & Commander outfit!)

They Came to Baghdad

Agatha Christie tries her hand at the global espionage thriller! And it's audio so far so good!